Does meditation drive you mad?

Kathy Krugeradoption, meditation, yoga19 Comments

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Well sometimes it does for me, but mostly when I’m not actually doing meditation and feeling bad that I’m not actually doing meditation when I feel I should be. Then I’m mad (mostly at myself). Yep meditation – just another shoulda, woulda, coulda in life.

It’s March, actually the 6th already as I post, and in typical not-getting-myself organized-enough style I am not actually organized with my meditation practice.

I went great guns in January, hot of the New Year block. I purchased a 21-day meditation program (which I’d previously trialed for free) by Deepak Chopra and Oprah Winfrey and proceeded to get myself hooked on daily practice (their new free program starts March 16).

I often sample free meditations available online (Smiling Mind is a popular one) and try out different you-tube meditation videos – if you haven’t already, check out the meditation videos I’ve been making for kids and adults (slight boast here, but my videos have collectively been viewed on you-tube almost 40,000 times).

In fact I made two new meditation videos over Christmas/early January – one on coping with change, the other on achieving good health. I was in such a lovely creative, meditative space. Sigh. Om. Sigh.

As January rolled on into February, as January’s are wont to do, I proceeded to do really well on a 30-day nutritional cleanse and ramped up my yoga practice even further, but slipped with my daily meditation ritual.

And now we’re in March already – a month I’d dubbed Meditation March – but I’m slacking on both the healthy diet and meditation front – what’s more almost a week has gone.

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Making meditation look easy here – it’s not

I have to ponder why I’m slacking, when I should be motivating you to meditate!

It’s because maybe mediation can drive you a little crazy!

Symptoms

  • Can’t stay still – you’re hanging out in Fidgetville
  • Manage to stay still, but can’t stop those thoughts (you actually really can’t and that’s ok)
  • Realise that although it’s ok (and normal) not to be able to stop your thoughts you wish you wouldn’t notice them quite so much
  • You wish that if you were going to notice your thoughts quite so much that they would be about good things- like tropical island holidays and Hugh Jackman rather than the pile of washing that needs folding and the rates bill due tomorrow (oh sh#t, it was due yesterday)
  • Inability to focus on positive thoughts (as above), but also catastrophising over the forgotten rates bill (holy sh#t – now we miss the 10 percent on-time discount which means my forgetfulness has just pissed $120 up the wall, now thinking about the million and one things I could have done with $120).
  • Sigh, Om, Sigh, Om, Om, Sigh – this is not working
  • Faaark, Faaaark, Faaaaark – this feels slightly better
  • Washing
  • Dinner
  • What other bills are due?
  • Why am I so distracted?
  • Breathe
  • Now I see it, the purple colour at my third-eye centre
  • Whoops, everything has gone black again
  • Tomorrow, tomorrow, there’s always tomorrow, tomorrow is another day
  • Thanks Annie, la la-lah – la la- lah – la la-la la la-lah, la la lah la la la la lah

Having described all that drives me mad about meditation, I’d strongly recommend it.

Last night in yin yoga, because it was a small class of six, our teacher actually gave each of us a food rub – I kid you not.

And her meditation bid us focus on a joyful moment – to see, smell, touch, hear, to re-experience that moment, and then strip it back so that only joy remained. To take that joy with us wherever we go.

I meditated on the moment we adopted our daughter – our first bittersweet meeting, a yin-yang experience of sheer joy (us) and sorrow (her) and then I pared back the tears and the sadness to reveal only the incredible joy.

And then I thought of adopting our son – meeting him with his big, radiant smile – there was only room for elation.

That’s what you get when you meditate – joy – bliss even – if you don’t let it drive you mad.

Does meditation drive you mad? Linking up with Grace for another FYBF and joining in the weekend rewind with Son, Bron, Kelly and Sonia Styling. I promise I’ll follow up with some tips to for making it easier.

Kathy X  (please comment and share)

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19 Comments on “Does meditation drive you mad?”

  1. mummywifeme

    Haha yes! I suffer a lot of those symptoms especially when I’m juggling so many balls. Now I have Annie in my head – When you’re stuck with a day, that’s grey and lonely! 😉

  2. Sarah @ Tomfo

    I can totally relate, I need to write a list and then my mind doesn’t keep going around in circles. I’d love to get into meditation now we have moved, off to check out your site for some tips.

  3. Min (@riteofthemiddle)

    I struggle to meditate regularly! I would love to make it a part of my daily routine (like brushing my teeth)! I also have a ‘monkey mind’ but have got better practiced at bringing my attention back to my breath. I much prefer meditating whilst listening to a guiding voice – so beautifully calming :-) xo

  4. Denise

    Yes to all of that! It drives me so nuts that I give up. You’re right – I have too many ‘should’s’ in my head when I’m doing it. I’m looking forward to your tips :-)

  5. This Charming Mum

    I love ‘Om, sigh, om, sigh’ – that’s often how I feel! Right now I try to meditate with music on because I simply can’t seem to achieve peace in silence – too much going on in my head. It’s definitely on my coulda, woulda, shoulda list. I think it’s incredibly important, and everyone should probably be doing it – even if it’s only a few minutes ‘down time’ rather than a structured meditation, but it can be very very hard to sit still!

    1. Kathy Kruger

      You’re right Lara – it needs to be when you can do it, whether through focusing on breathing or some other visualisation. I have been experimenting with meditation videos because I feel most of us need some guidance to help us detach from our thoughts and a voice/video guide really helps. Fewer bills to worry about might help too!

  6. frasercoasting

    I’d like to meditate more (at all). I’ve tried off and on but now really only try to listen to meditation recordings as I go to sleep at night. I think the thing I’ve had to come to terms with is that there’s no right or wrong and it doesn’t matter if you don’t clear your mind etc… it’s the act of trying and doing which makes a difference.

    Deb
    (It’s defaulting to one of my other WP accounts!)

    1. Kathy Kruger

      Absolutely no right or wrong Deb, and totally agree about the act of trying. I think it is a really hard habit to ‘make’, but then most of the really worthwhile habits aren’t so easy!

  7. Sonia Life Love Hiccups

    OMG yes and I am so glad someone like you who meditates regularly also struggles sometimes. Thats why I like guided meditation and so on that note I WILL DEFINITELY be checking out your You tube videos you clever girl xx

  8. Grace

    Even before I actually start to meditate, I have to take a minute and do some deep breathing. I just can’t launch into it. And even then, my mind can totally get scattered…ugh! But the more often I do it (and consistently), I can instantly feel better. Thanks for the reminder to get back into it.

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