Maybe you’re in the midst of a mid-life
crisis reinvention, maybe you’re too young for one, or perhaps you’ve come out the other side. Maybe you’re having an early existential crisis or perhaps (lucky/perfect you) you just don’t feel any need to reinvent. Who says you have to reinvent?
Maybe you are just caught up in the Christmas car park queues and don’t really care.
Maybe you’re waiting for this BIG, HUGE, GIGANTIC change. Perhaps a new year will bring it. 2016 will be your year – if you make it that way.
But changes don’t always (or very often) happen in huge, dramatic ways. The sneak and squirrel up on you. They creep up, turning laziness and procrastination and wallowing into bad habits, or they notch up, turning steady and oh-so-subtle improvements into major transformations. You choose.
So I was thinking back to all the things I’ve done, the changes I’ve made, in my (ongoing) search for meaning and ‘reinvention’. Maybe I’m almost ready to come out the other side, while finally recognizing that life is much more about exploring than searching. Recognizing that as much things change – well you know the saying.
Realising that it’s simply a process of ‘up-cycling’ your life.
Here goes – a potted history of the last ten (well actually 12 – that’s what happens when you get old, time flies even faster) years of change in my life (hopefully without boring you senseless).
- 2004 – aged 36, become a mother (at long bloody last). After our 8 year ‘journey’ of infertility, IVF and adoption, I’m more than ready for this change in my life. Well sort of – nothing ever really prepares you. Cheers.
- 2005 – happy, stay-at-home Mum – with just a tiny bit of consultancy/writing work on the side. Hardly drink wine – too busy enjoying parenting. Get really fit.
- 2006 – happy, stay-at-home Mum – with a bit more consultancy/writing work. Busy juggling. Finish a version of my unpublished memoir. Get into interior design (dabbling with casual work in a home/design store). Drink a bit more wine.
- 2007 – aged 39, restless with staying at home, excitedly do a feasibility/business plan for a new food business with dreams of franchising and then reconcile myself to the fact that; a) we are waiting on our second adoption and; b) we have no money to start a business. Decide to go after a ‘corporate’ job again, and after narrowly missing a plum university role, return to a role in local government with new enthusiasm. Here’s cheers (with a wine of course).
- 2008 – turn 40!?!?! Try to stay enthused about new role. Renovate. Drink a bit too much wine. Then get fit again.
- 2009 – decide to study for a Masters of Environment part-time (with work supporting study) – something completely different (excuse the boast – get two distinctions and one high distinction). Miss Yin starts school. Do a bit of yoga. Parenting/work/study moderate my wine consumption, at least a bit.
- 2010 – decide to leave job, and put study on hold. Take on new corporate role at a university, all the while STILL waiting for second adoption. Renovate. Finally adopt our son at the end of the year, aged 42 (after only spending 10 months in said new corporate role). Spend a fair bit of the year stressed, including when my Dad is diagnosed with cancer – cue wine, and a bit of yoga.
- 2011 – live ‘the dream’ in Canada for a year on hubby’s job and house exchange. Get to not work for a whole year! Stay-at-home with baby Little Yang and Miss Yin at school. Bake!?! Ski. Travel (New York, New York/Disneyland/San Francisco/Rocky Mountains). Drive on the other side of the road. Eat poutine (fries with cheese curd) and s’mores (ice-cream sandwiched between chocolate biscuits with marshmallow). Drink Canadian beer and far too much Chilean wine by the fire. Get unfit. Get back into yoga. Re-write my memoir.
- 2012 – return to the ‘real world’. Have to go back to work part-time in local government. Drink too much wine. Start a blog with big plans. Negotiate a new full-time role down to 4 days (three from the office, one from home – winning!). Get back into yoga, again.
- 2013 – Drink too much wine. Get a bit into work again – want the ‘career’ role again (only not really). Universe and boss conspire not to give me career role. Really get into yoga. Get into kid’s meditation videos. Get into blogging.
- 2014 – Really get more into yoga, and a little bit more into work. Do yoga teacher training (aged 46). Still drink wine (a little too much). Get less into blogging (but do start a fortnightly contribution to a global yoga blog).
- 2015 – Little Yang starts school. Still at work. Teach yoga. Do more yoga training. Do less blogging. Renovate and get back into interior design. Dad gets the five-year all-clear from cancer. I get fitter and drink no wine for a while. Teach more yoga. Get more into meditation. But still drink
a bittoo much wine. Age 47.
And the up-cycling continues – ten best things to do with empty toilet rolls, in case you are interested. Everything old is new again.
2016? – Well I would say ‘Cheers’, but I’ve already laid bare a decade + of wine consumption, more or less (but let’s face it usually more). Maybe it is time to put the glass down – time for change.
So Namaste – it’s too early in December for an end-of-year finale. Enjoy the Christmas countdown and I’ll be back on the blog with some festive cheer. And yoga. And meditation. And a bit of balance. An exploring, always exploring.
Linking up with Essentially Jess for IBOT for the last time this year. Merry Christmas IBOTer’s. Are you reinventing yourself? Is it a constant process?