Change can feel like a four-letter word (not the one you’re thinking of) – FEAR. But change is really a five-letter word – GROWTH. At least that’s the theory I’m going with at the moment. From our year spent living in Canada, I will always associate this time of the year with falling leaves, with letting go. And yet here … Read More
It rumbles in, low and soft and soothing. I’m woken not by distant thunder or tapping rain, but a scared and spluttering son. He nestles in beside me in bed, coughing all over me, as a I cuddle away his fear and sickness.
So it’s Friday 13th, and I’m telling fear to fug off! Well I’m trying – I reckon just the act of standing up to fear, looking it in the face and telling it that while you are still afraid you won’t let it scare you, is the first step in banishing it for good. I’ve heard it said that daring … Read More
Spring – the season for growth. Green shoots and blossoming flowers and fresh perfume in the air. It sort of smells like a positive affirmation (I imagine). In reality, a lot of sun (yang) and water (yin) are required along with a positive attitude in order to flourish. I start this, my first post of Spring, and the page is … Read More
Watch out world! I’m suffering an attack of the ‘horrormones’ and I can’t be held responsible for who I attack as a result. Well that’s my excuse anyway. (Horrormones are hormones on steroids – I came across this non-medical but perfectly accurate term when we were doing IVF and I was partaking of lovely hormonal cocktail each cycle – well actually … Read More
The dog ate my homework! Have you ever tried to call an excuse a reason? Reasons are real right? Valid, logical facts that can’t be disputed, right? Excuses are just expressions of fear, lame rationalisations at best, grounded in emotion not logic, right? Or maybe wrong? Well about the reasons anyway. Confused? You see I think that I find reasons … Read More
I feel a little bad starting a post about quitting complaining by grumbling about my son. But if enduring his world-class whinging and whining has been worth anything, it’s been to teach me that embracing change is the secret to stopping complaining…to waking up one morning with nothing to carp about and everything to appreciate.
The other day my Miss Yin told me she felt ‘empty’. She was upset and worried, the day before the school year started, although she didn’t end up making it to that first day, things ending badly in tears and hysterics. Oh God – I’ve felt empty before (too often, too much), but I can’t remember or even imagine what it … Read More
Lately I’ve been all fired up – not about anything or at anyone in particular – just a futile, yet fierce fury at the world (Ok I’m fuming at Mr Yang today and work frustrations have me almost boiling over, but I truly think there’s some cosmic fireworks going on – the last fiery breathe of the Chinese Year of … Read More
Miss Yin, now a big nine-year-old, has cherished her blankie since she was a baby, or more particularly, since we gave it to her on the day we adopted her, when she was almost 13 months old. She clung onto it for dear life. She snuggled into it for warmth, for softness, a sense of comfort, security – like all … Read More
Little kids are funny – you know how when they don’t want something to be how it is they simply put their hands over their eyes to block it out: ‘What I can’t see won’t hurt me’. As they get older they realise the can actually close their eyes – more effective in blocking out your view of life, if … Read More
Sometimes we are so scared of change. You’d think it was a four letter word (FEAR). But when you check out the hairstyles and fashion I used to think were so stylish, its easy to see how change is just so very necessary! And it’s OK to laugh at this collection of clips from my days of TV and video presenting. Those … Read More