It came as a surprise last Friday as I came out dripping from a sweaty flow class – I was in the right (if the scary) place at the right time at my hot yoga studio – Can you teach a class on Monday?!?
I nearly sweated bucket-loads more. YES! I said, confident (shaking in my own sweat) that I’d be fine.
So a couple of weeks earlier than I’d expected, before we even finish our training, I taught my first class (with a fellow trainee) last night.
How did we go?
I somehow managed to keep a handle on my nerves (that would be the power of yoga breathing) and once I got started I managed to find my flow (how funny is that when that’s pretty much what I’m trying to do, and help others to do, with my blog). My co-teacher also sounded calm, composed and confident.
I didn’t forget anything (or anything important that I can remember!) and I even felt comfortable as I got my rhythm going. I know I probably managed to say something really smart like ‘bring your ankles and feet together’ but I think I minimised my ‘ums and ahs’.
I smiled, I felt the part, and although I know I can improve on my body language, I think I may have looked the part.
And how did it feel – well AWESOME.
We even got a few of these –
So it’s all feeling a bit surreal now – like any FIRST I guess. I find myself needing feedback (only natural) and reassurance – and that will come. Yet I also feel content within myself that I did my best, and that my best was pretty darn OK.
What’s more I’m feeling like my BEST is enough for me, regardless of what anyone else thinks. No matter how much I try to focus on building this inner self-confidence, no matter how many times I’ve tried to explore these ideas in my writing – to talk, or write myself into ‘thinking’ confidently and not caring what others think, tonight for the FIRST time (at least in a while) I simply FELT it. I didn’t over-think or over-feel things (and then over-think them some more). I just felt like I was where I was meant to be. And you know what that felt like….
So in other exciting news, I’m now a fortnightly blog columnist for DoYouYoga.
I’ll be a featured blogger under the name Yogini Mother (not much different to Yinyang Mother) and I hope to get some nice experience and exposure out of my involvement (because goodness knows guest blogging pays so much these days – $0). Mostly I hope to increase and share my knowledge and love of yoga with other mad yogis, rather than bore you too much all the time with everything yogic.
Here are the four posts I’ve had published so far (go on click, you know you want to):
8 ways yoga fills you up when you’ve got nothing left to give (mothers – this one is for you)
Why you’re never too old to teach (or learn) yoga (people of my vintage or older will appreciate)
How to turn your yoga class into a gratitude meditation (we can all be grateful)
Find your balance – let go AND let in (a yoga take on my favourite subject)
Fist-pumping, or should I say high yoga-prayering.
What’s your most recent FIRST? How did it feel? (not sure if I’m getting into dangerous territory here).
Linking up with Jess for another IBOT.