I have a new favourite word –LOLL. Thankfully it’s not my word of the year for 2015 (or I wouldn’t get much done), but it is my word of the moment.
I lolled Christmas Day (our main celebration was Christmas Eve and while there wasn’t much lolling going on in preparation, it was all worth it).
I could say I luxuriated Christmas day – but since no-one painted my toenails or gave me a massage it wasn’t quite the spa treatment. Still I luxuriated in time. Marinated in time as we say in yin yoga. And then ate seafood and drank some more.
In fact I’ve been lolling for the best part of the week – and I’ve decided that LOLing (laughing) and LOLLing (lounging) are two of the best ways we can spend our time, especially at this time of the year (the new Night at the Museum movie was LOL funny and poignant at the same time, given the loss of Robin Williams).
Most of us are upbeat as we start a new year – things will be different, better, goals will be achieved, words of the year lived by (mine is BREATHE – so I guess I better be living out that one)!
But even when we try to take an up-beat approach, it can be hard to stay positive. New habits are hard to make, old habits even harder to break. Blah, blah, any excuse.
Lately I’ve found myself questioning myself even more than usual – and the answers aren’t that easy (to come by or to listen to).
Is it easier to be less than, than enough?
I feel like I’m taking the easy way out – at risk of settling into the middle-aged spread of surrender to this ordinary life.
What if it is a lack of effort that’s the problem? Not a lack of talent, luck or opportunity. Not bad timing, or busy-ness. What if I’m simply settling for feeling less than, rather than making the effort to feel enough, or dare I say it MORE THAN I’ve felt before?
Now there’s an oxymoron.
How does it require effort to feel enough? Shouldn’t it be a natural thing? And as for wanting to feel MORE THAN – isn’t that just rendering ENOUGH not ENOUGH?
Ah Semantics. I love the dance we do.
Seriously, I feel particularly lazy of late in my quest to feel enough, all of the time.
As I wrote from holidays at Brunswick Heads a month ago, nothing is what we really need – but even on a staycation over Christmas (with hubby working shifts) I still feel bad about being lazy.
Yet laziness should be as legitimate as busyness in this quest for balance.
And even as the New Year arrives and thoughts move to plans and resolutions, its OK to take the lazy approach – to let the ideas marinate, let intentions take their time to form, to not feel rushed to have 2015 planned and sorted before it even starts.
So my lazy guide to being enough is to just BE. LOLL. You are ENOUGH.
MORE THAN will take care of itself after you’ve had some rest and can move on with your best intentions and concrete plans that you haven’t been pressured to make before the calendar deadline.
Meantime I haven’t been totally lazy – I have made you this 10 minute guided meditation to help you make changes from a place of always feeling enough, always knowing the universe has your back.
So loll. Change. Enjoy.